hi dad the kids are at mums keeping her well and truly busy.dad im stuck in a situation and i so wish you were here to guide me.im not in trouble but im just a but stuck in this place and i dont know which way to turn.these are the times i miss you most because you were always there to advise us and tell me not to be silly.why did you have to go dad???? why does god take the good people first? dad are you proud os us i wish we knew if you were looking down on us it would make things so much more bearable. im haunted by the day you died i can still see your face and your complete stillness sometimes i find it hard to breathe when i think about it. i wish i could turn back time i always feel we didnt do enough for you was there more we could have done? dad please can you come into mums dreams she would love to see you it would make her feel more at peace although dad we will never feel at peace untill we see you again. dad love you so much i know your shaking your head at me right now moaning at you but hey you know me. love u loads dad